Un moment de confesiune.
EN: A moment of confession.
In ultimele zile s-a umplut net-ul de #10yearschallenge. S-au numarat ridurile in plus, kilogramele in plus sau minus, s-au notat schimbarile de stil vestimentar sau de culoare a parului. Am incercat sa fac si eu acest exercitiu, si am realizat ca cele mai mari schimbari in acesti 10 ani s-au petrecut in interiorul meu.
De fapt, cred ca schimbarea majora are alt prag, nu se masoara in 10 sau 5 sau 15 ani, ci in “inainte de a deveni mama” si “dupa ce am devenit mama”. Cel putin pentru mine asa a fost.
In ultimii ani, am trecut printr-un proces lung de autocunoastere. Iar asta datorita lui Vlad. Pentru a-l intelege mai bine pe el, a trebuit sa ma inteleg mai bine pe mine. Ca si cand dintr-un spectator al unui spectacol de teatru, am dat cortina la o parte si am inceput sa intru in culise. Stiam ca sunt acolo si ce contin, asa, la modul general. Dar in ultimii ani chiar m-am apucat sa fac ordine printre “costume” si “recuzita”.
Procesul nu a fost intotdeauna usor si nici nu s-a incheiat. Dar cred ca am devenit mai toleranta, mai intelegatoare cu emotiile copilului si ale celor din jur, ori cu gandurile neimplinite, cu nevoile celorlalti, dar si cu nevoile mele.
Cred ca datorita copilului meu am devenit un om mai bun. Iar pentru asta ii voi fi pentru totdeauna recunoscatoare.
Pe voi cum simtiti ca v-a schimbat maternitatea?
Pozele sunt realizate intr-o scurta iesire in Barcelona, la finalul lui 2018. In poze port: costum Tex, helanca & Other Stories, pantofi Uterque, palton Zara, ochelari Burberry.
EN: All you can see online these days is the #10yearschallenge. People counted their extra wrinkles, their more or less kilograms, have noted their fashion changes or hair color transformations. I tried to do this exercise myself, and I have come to the conclusion that the biggest changes in these 10 years happened mostly inside me.
Actually, I think the major change has a different milestone, it doesn’t measure in 10 or 15 years, but in “before I became a mother” and “after I became a mother”. At least that’s how it was for me.
In the last years, I have gone through a long process of self-discovery. And that’s all due to Vlad. In order to understand him better, I had to understand myself better. As if I was a spectator in a theatre, and then decided to lift the curtain and join the play. I know what that meant in general. But in the past years I began putting the “costumes” and “props” in order.
The process hasn’t always been easy, nor is it finished. But I think I have become more tolerant, more understanding of the child’s emotions and of those around me, but also with unfulfilled thoughts, other people’s needs, but also with my own.
I think that due to my child I have become a better person. And for this I will always be grateful to him.
In what ways do you feel motherhood changed you?
The pictures were taken during a short city break in Barcelona, at the end of 2018. In the pictures I am wearing: Tex suit, & Other Stories turtleneck, Uterque shoes, Zara coat, Burberry glasses.